Well it's been a while since I've bothered to splurge my brain out in the blog. So firstly since my last post I've received an amended appointment for Charing Cross, this time 16th February and with a different doctor, who I've heard mixed things about. However never the less it's an appointment and many other people in my position would kill for that, so I shouldn't grumble.
However this is now less than a month away, am I crapping it yet. YES!, yes I am. I've haven't really made any plans for the trip, mostly because I haven't decided how to approach it yet. By that I mean how I am going to present myself. I have 3 options.
Go as Josie.
Full female attire. Realisticly I am probably not where near ready for this option. Although I attend the TREC meetings, I only get dressed on site and change before leaving. I haven't really been out and about much. After speaking to other people they have advised it probably wouldn't be a wise choice for my first trip out, as I'll already nervous enough, and it won't be frowned at the GIC just because I'm not yet ready to go full time. Plus I would also realisticly have to book 2 nights in a hotel nearby to enable me to change before and after my appointment, because it's late morning and I would have to check out before leaving for my appointment if I only stayed one night.
Go as Joe.
I'm also not so keen on this option because it doesn't really show any progress or commitment on my behalf.
Go as Neither.
By this I mean don't go full on en-femme, but make an effort to look more feminine and less blokey. This probably a reasonably happyish medium between the other two. I don't want to end up out of my depth for something like this, but it's time I started pushing the envelope and taking a few 'risks' or I'm never going to get anywhere. I wouldn't need to book a hotel costing silly money because it's central London for 2 nights, although I may stay the night before just to clear my head a bit. I'm not sure yet.
I've just got a lot on my mind, and I need to start thinking more about this as the next few weeks will fly by.
